A lot of change happened this week. I quite my job – something I had been thinking about for a while. This also means my kids routines will change as they will attend school less frequently while I look for a new job. The weight of letting go of a position that wasn’t working for me anymore was magnificent – for a moment. But then, oh yes, there is a but then, it was soon followed by the gigantic fear of the unknown.
To work through the fear I spent most of Saturday sleeping and not parenting while Joe took on the bulk of our domestic duties. By Sunday, I was ready to be present, but unfortunately this weekend that did not include a drive into the mountains for a spontaneous, beautiful hike. No, this Sunday we stayed local. Fortunately, we have several neighborhood walks ranging from 1-3 miles that we like to do in a pinch.
So, what do you do when you have just made a major life decision that affects your whole family, and you don’t yet have a plan to bounce back? Well, first you sleep, then you walk. You walk, you talk, you breath deeply, you lean on your loved one’s, you let go, you learn and you grow. I have a blank canvas in front of me for the first time in 11 years. I have already splattered the words flexibly, family friendly, and opportunities for growth onto this new career canvas. The rest is unknown. I’m learning to be okay with that, and maybe even a little excited.
What I do know is that I want to be present for my kids, but to be completely honest being present as parent when you are experiencing personal difficulties is really hard! At the same time the attention young children require is a great distraction from those other stressors in life. But, I digress. We took several mini-jaunts around the neighborhood this weekend; stopping at the playground for some free play and handing over the wagon to AJ as he pulled MJ along.
Life happens, and sometimes that means you miss a weekend in the mountains, and eat a lot of chocolate. The spirit of 52 Weeks of Nature is about getting outside no matter what that looks like . This weekend getting outside meant walking around the neighborhood, visiting our local playground and letting the boys roam freely in the backyard. That’s why I like this challenge, because it’s adaptable and considerate of the human spirit, and sometimes the human spirit just needs to stay close to home, to bake up a storm, and to recoup after interacting with outside world.